Today a more serious topic. I was lucky to attend a weekend meditation retreat. It was sooo fantastic! During one of the meditations I got an insight. Because of the language we usually use to describe such an event, I still felt some guilt around my first pregnancy. Why? Because we tend to say "I lost the baby". In some way this sentence implies that it's part of my fault. Because I didn't take care. Like when you loose your car key because you didn't close your bag properly. Or you forgot to take your umbrella back home. But that's absolutely not true! For whatever reason it wasn't meant to be at that time. Things like that just happen. It's sad enough to experience the loss of a baby - it doesn't matter what week you are in. And having a language which is not very supportive doesn't help a bit. For me just realizing that the words we use don't have to have any meaning was really a relief. Because on a very subtle level I felt that meaning when talking about the miscarriage (I don't think that word is a lot better). So - I wanted to share this. In case someone feels the same...